Doldrums

Ever felt like you're suffocating? You can feel the air, you know it's somewhere around you, waiting to be inhaled, you just have to take a breath... But you can't.
Invisible scarf is smothering you. Life is evading.

That's where I am right now. At the bottom of an ocean looking up to the surface and to the sun shining above it.

...

But I can't move. I can't reach it. I can't breathe. I'm choking.

I'm falling deeper...